Ghostwriter - not for hire

Generally speaking, my life is awesome. In fact, it only seems to be getting better but that doesn't mean challenges aren't ongoing. The learning opportunity discussed in this video has taken a long time to uncover. Which basically means I've been hoping it would resolve itself with some positive action on their part, have been avoiding it or maybe I didn't want to admit that my feelings were hurt (because only LOSERS allow other people to mess with them). Joke there.

I'm still learning that life happens FOR me, not TO me. 

And maybe there's even more to learn in this lesson. My thinking has been a bit...victimy and I found myself hoping that other people would align with my personal values. That said - Jed, stop relying on others to make you feel better. Jed, no matter what happens in life, you control how you feel about it. Jed, instead of thinking you lost a year of your life (see, victimy) writing a book, maybe think that you spent a year of your life learning that you're capable things you never thought possible! How could some kid from no-where-ville, Utah - who grew up in a single-wide trailer write a book?


The book I "ghostwrote" has very little drama compared to my head space around this over the last few years. It has been an emotional experience and honestly, I've allowed it to create negativity in my head space for too long. Time to move on.

Forgiveness has been an ongoing theme in my life for the past few years. Yup, even THERAPISTS struggle...at times (insert winky face here). Regardless, this blog and making the video feels like a step in the right direction. And wow, did this teach me to be more organized! I mean, c'mon, who loses the signed royalties contract?

"Hi, my name is Jed and I was not responsible enough (at the time) to put the signed contract in a safe place and I lost it."

More truth be told and maybe this is more of a 'confession'...I told a few people about writing the book...I was just so PROUD and SHOCKED that I pulled it off! But for reals, even though I had the verbal affirmation, the contract says it has to be "written". So, maybe the contract was "nullified" a long time ago and I just didn't know about it.

Most of all, though - I'm learning that being able to forgive nothing to do with anyone else but me.

Thank you, person who hired me to ghost write their book. You have helped me in more ways than either one of us knew. And once again, I see that life happend for me, not to me.

Gratitude is the key.

It took me a hot minute to find my way to this direction. Remember, people are unique. We have our own individual timelines when it comes to figuring things out. My way is not going to be your way and what took me years might take you a couple of hours!

However long it takes, I'm just hoping that this is helpful in your journey.

Till next time,
Awareness UP.

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